I don't exactly feel like writing but I'm beyond bored and dumb so this is the way to express my empty, unintelligent thoughts. Yesterday and today were the best days I've had in a while, since I was with my dear, most important friends. It was my best friend's birthday party. And we SANG. We went to this little café and there was karaoke so for the first time in our lives we tried it. We managed to get out with our pride intact if not bigger.

But these couple of days confirmed my theory. Simple and somewhat private is always the best. It's not that I am anti-social in the true sense of the word but I like people in small groups and small doses, when it comes to the ones I don't know that well. 

Anyway, school is starting Monday after vacation, and I couldn't be less looking forward to go. Laziness is a very powerful feeling for me, I admit.

In my country and for my religion, Easter is a big festivity and I have to say this year I certainly celebrated it accordingly. After 40 days avoiding sugar-y food, I ate the typical Easter candy, savouring it even more after such a period of sacrifice I put myself through;)

So, without anything more to say, I wish you a good Spring and my best wishes go to those who work and study. 

Bye*

Have you ever felt like you worked so hard for something but in the end things don't turn out the way you expected them to? 

I think that's a common feeling nowadays when disappointment is a constant companion for those who see the sky as the ground to jump to higher places. For that reason alone, my motto is to expect as less as you can, but fight as much as you can, because then you will always be satisfied. Of course, that's easier said then done, but it's possible to do.

It's actually interesting that I am writing a journal online knowing that no one will answer these questions or even debate these subjects with me. I guess I just want to put this so I can remember what I think now when I read this sometime later.

So, for anyone who reads this, I just would like to wish you a good day (or night) and at least think about what I said:)

Bye*

It's time for big decisions such as the college I want to attend and what I'm studying for. What do I want to do with my life, professionally? Only I can answer those questions that occupy almost all my thoughts these days.

Whatever I decide to do, I just hope it's what I'm meant to pursue in life. 

Which leads to my next subject: How do we see ourselves in ten or fifteen years? We dream of a pleasurable, safe job; of a companion for life, maybe kids, even; of a big, beautiful home, with everything we fight for our whole lives. But does this ever come true? And if it does, are we happy with that result or do we always wish for more for our needs are never fully satisfied?

I do believe humans are overly ambicious seeing as how they are never glad or remotely thankful for what they have. We, humans, are in a constant search for love and fulfillment, turning us into eternal dreamers and goals-directed people.

If we weren't as determined and stubborn as we are, probably we would still be in caves. This makes me grateful for ambition, determination but above all our human need for personal achievement.

Bye* 

The countdown to my 18th birthday has begun and I wish it hadn't since I'm not excited about that. In my country, now I will be able to get a driver's license, to go to jail, to vote but to me the only thing that remotely interests me of all three is the last option, due to my somewhat political nature.

Plus, now I have college on my mind to make me nervous, so school has kept me preoccupied for a while now. 

On a brighter note, U2 are releasing albums this year which means a fever is starting on my little head.

Next time, I'll be an adult, active, official citizen of Portugal.

To whover reads this,

 Bye*

I'm new at this kind of technology on what concerns actually writing a journal. Also, I'm portuguese, so the errors may be bad and often. 

Honestly, I don't know what else to say besides telling whoever reads this that I'm a student, approaching the end of high school, without a clear idea of what I want to do professionally.

I LOVE U2 and Bono is a major role model as an idealistic, aware, involved citizen and, of course, he is a great singer in the best rock band in the world - You're free to disagree. I love The O.C., Friends and other TV shows; I'm a regular reader of fanfictions, and I'm fond of the showbusiness, in general...

With this said, here I am!